the reality versus the optimist.

considering i am always forward-thinking, i see it fitting to describe my future, in depth, the way i want it and the way it is going to be. i'm going to egypt either next summer, next winter break, or the summer after i graduate, depending on how well and fast i save money. i'm going to invest in a lovely lomography camera and it will be my pride and joy. that, and i will procure many other cameras, each with a different life and cause. after i graduate, i will find a nice flat in the center of los angeles, preferably somewhere near a semi-decent and tolerable job. i will take my lunch breaks on the beach or in a park with friends. i will find out where all the cute, tiny, unnoticed cafes are, and befriend the owners. i will make friends in unexpected places. i will catch up with old friends over dinner. i will have no obligations, but i will still manage my time wisely, and try to make the most out of working my way up in my job, whatever it may turn out to be, preferably something with a magazine, newspaper, or owning a cafe. i will overcome my fear of heights by constantly being in skyscrapers, and maybe grow an inch or two more. i will have all my cute new friends over for tea and poetry readings, all my cute new friends who i meet in unexpected places. i will document all of it. sure why waste my time with taking photos, what is the point, but i enjoy visuals, i enjoy looking back to the memory of it, and i will enjoy looking at photos of my new cute friends making kissy faces. i will have old friends over for pillow fights and tickle wars. maybe i will have a boyfriend, maybe i will not. i will spend my weekends testing different tea flavors, attending openings of art exhibits in small holes-in-the-walls in the city, dancing the evenings away by myself or in crowds, letting my walls down. i will do something with my life. i will learn from my mistakes, and i will not let my father down.

granted, there is the possibility that i will work in a cubicle all day, and get drunk to actually get to sleep every night, but i'd like to think that won't happen, and that maybe i'll actually be able to do something i want to do, for once. i would like to be extremely cultured and well-rounded, and that is how it is going to be.